Vintage. Despair

一小时

2010-02-02T03:17:00.003+08:00

一小时可以做什么？从马六甲回到麻坡。。从MMU去到塞车的town。。染头发。。做facial。。
都不是。。有试过一个小时都在打电话的吗？连冲凉都不放弃的狂打。。一直打到“the number you have dialled is NOT IN SERVICE; nombor yang anda dial TIADA DALAM PERKHIDMATAN; 真抱歉，您拨的号码并不存在”。。。对，我就是倒背如流！我不明白为什么号码不存在？存心让我找不到你？我很担心又有谁知道？去到你家门前，听到的只是麻将声，这时又有谁知道我的难受？我根本不被在乎。在乎的话根本不是这样的表现。。要好好对你真的很难，很难！每次决心想对你好，你总是打击我的信心，总是说难听的话，既然你都把我看成这样，那我何必还对你好？说真的，觉得我不好就不要跟我在一起可以吗？一个不被欣赏的女人从里到外都不会漂亮。我不要变成那种女人，而且我不是！

问题的存在只会让心的距离越来越遥远。。上一分钟可以很好，下一秒钟可以马上翻脸。。谁承受得了？自己辛苦，对方却快活着。。痛苦的是当你知道他可以很开心，你却自己烦恼的要命！没人理你。。真的会痛苦到想死！谁又会在乎你的眼泪？

谁能告诉我，是时候结束了吗？

I love my dog!

2009-11-15T13:40:00.005+08:00

I cannot see my dog being bullied! Why would she deserved to be shouted like 过街老鼠? I don't understand why would my dad shout at her everytime he sees her? I think it's a childish act wtf! She actually lives in agony you see? I wanna bring her out of this kind of life! Today I have made up my mind, decided to bring her to Malacca and stay at ZS' house. This does not mean her miserable life will end there. But at least I get to see her everyday if I want to lar. Ginny, don't worry, Mummy will go visit you everyday k? She is supposed to be a dog kept in house, but I have no choice have to leave her outside again (though it's against my will), since it's not my house and his housemates may not like her as well. So, here you go Ginny, I brought you a new life, hope you adapt it well and be obedient k? You are always lovely in mummy's eyes :) You outsiders would not know how loving she is when she sees me. Greet me like countless times without feeling bored. I can see from her eyes, they tell me "Mummy show some love to me!" She is just as manja as I do, the difference is just that no one replies my manja, unlike me, I will at least pat her head and start brushing through her fur. I love her very much (when she is not naughty, in fact she was never naughty to me, just being playful like other kids, I kid you not kids these days can be mischievous x10000000000000000000000 no longer like our times k? I know it because I was a kindergarten teacher who got bullied till I cried. embarrassment!) Anyway, I look forward to this new life of Ginny! Please, everyone please sayang her to the max ok? She is so lovely if you get to know her more, and trust me she knows who treats her bad and good! So be good to her ok? :) She will love you more than you love her one, but she will still love me the most! ❤

it hurts to make a decision.

2009-11-14T01:05:00.005+08:00

I don't want to give you away. But all I heard about you were only complaints, never-ending complaints. Everytime when this occurred, I always had mixed feelings. You are only annoying to my family, you just could not be a part of them. The reason is just that you destroyed, you did not contribute; you annoyed, you did not create happiness; you created noises, never had they think you brought joy. It is very heart-arching when beating you, it hurts my heart just like how hurt you are on the skin. I felt like teaching a child, a rebellious one. I always told myself, you are still young to understand human's language; still too young to be obedient; all sorts of reason for you to be naughty and mischievous. I cannot afford to sacrifice more high heels as your toys. Both heels were my mum's favourite and preference heels, but now they could not be worn because of you. I totally understand when one loses her favourite belongings especially shoes. My dad has hung a pair of the heels around your neck, it hurts my heart but I insisted because I thought you'd learn from your previous mistake, but you disappointed me tonight, it did not work as a reminder for you. There is nothing I can do, I feel so helpless, do you know? How would you know? If you knew it, you would not create this kind of troubles. Looking into your tearful eyes, they told me you knew you were wrong, you did not avoid when I beat you so hard, you whined sometimes. You looked so innocent with your big eyes staring, it makes me felt like I wrongly blamed you. When will you learn? You are 7 months old, I can no longer pamper you like you were 1 month old, so tiny. I am so grateful you are a small sized dog, just like how I expected you to be when I got you. Although you are not as cute as before, you are still lovely to me; always chased and jumped around when I was in sight, always alert when I called your name, always gave me your paw to greet me. I am sorry I cannot provide you a proper shelter. Anyhow I am not going to give you away. When you were so young, I used to slap you because you whined too much, I could not have proper sleeping time, always awake to take care of you because you were fear of darkness, but watching you sleep on my laps securely just could not be described in words. Sometimes, out of anger I shouted, "you are just a dog!". I am ashamed. When you learnt how to bark, it was headache, you tend to bark non stop, the habit remains till now, but I believed you barked when you saw something invisible to us. I remembered there was once I threw you out of the house shouting "I don't want you anymore!" you stood still and attempting to get in, I brought you even farer, when my mum asked you in, you stood far and refused to come back until she carried you, maybe you knew you did not deserve treatment like this. There was another time, you ran out with Doggie, you ran to a neighbour's gate, he opened it and you wanted to sneak in, were you thinking to get a new master who can treat you better? Maybe you were. I were ashamed of myself. I cannot just give you away, because we have special bonding. When I was beating you just now, you came near me seeking protection from me. You do not do this to others, only to me, from this I know you trust me, although I could hardly see you, I know you can still recognize me as your master because we have this unique bonding other won't have with you. I learn to know how my mum felt upon beating me when I was still young. This is the time I should really think for your future.

Mummy loves you, Ginny!

1st picture of yours, credit goes o Crystal

When I first saw you, I fell in love with you.

1st shower at Nic's place. Thanks, Nic and Crystal :)

Wrapped to keep you warm

Sleeping in your house

You were not even my lappie size, so tiny!

Gathering with friends :)

You were so sleeeeeeeeepy
You used to sleep like there was no tomorrow!

He enjoyed playing with you

He adores you more than I do

Special shot of you

You looked shy and insecure when I first brought you back to Muar

My favourite picture of yours

You were so tiny I could even carry you with 1 hand

You still looked cute when you were sleeping

Xiao Xi loves you too!

When you were 3 months old

Prohibited to come into living room, you looked sad

You have big ears ;)

You looked like a lamb in this picture

Playing with Uncle Doggie

Talking to Doggie

You looked like a plush toy

When you were 6 months old

Looking smart!

Lovely!

You have a long tongue just like I do
Like mother, like daughter ;)
Pointy ears when alert

Alert!

You love me more than I love you.

SUPER EMO!

2009-09-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

Today I am super emo, just like my title!
Don't ask me why, because I myself do not know!

Went and ate my beloved beef nasi beriani, should be contented because God knows when I last ate it. Somemore with my beloved bf. The feeling was just not right.

Came back from work, I saw 3 parcels awaiting me to unwrap them. Should be excited like hell but I just could not be myself. (still play with them like they were my new toys because I super love lip glosses these days!)

Then watched 星光5 [荣誉]. Again, God knows what went wrong in me, I felt like crying upon hearing each song they sang. Not that touching actually. Did not touch my heart though, but the feelings just came up to me. I hold my treasured tears because it was nothing to cry for! siao, super emo lar! By the way, I like Olivia Ong :) Then got addicted to Olivia, started playing her songs from 8pm to 12am? Lol, this is just me, would play the same song/ album repeatedly if I like it for that very moment! Speechless, huh?

Then ZS called me up, informing me he was going with his former schoolmates, that was 8.40pm. There he went missing until 12.19am I started to worry and rang him. Okay, he was on his way going home fetching another friend. This is the first time I actually did not get moody over him going out with his friends, leaving me alone at home. I seriously think I have grown. When he got home, he called me and it was very unhappy. He said I talked nonsense, I was just asking "all boys ar?" Anything wrong meh? Unless he was hiding something lor. Don't care lar! Fuck it, like I care!

I am already very emo for the WHOLE day, now he even pissed me with that "nonsense" issue. What is his problem?! But I did not raise my voice or what, because I already promised myself to change, so I cannot be so easily defeated one lor! Then I thought of a good way to 发泄, so I am here blogging again. Express my feelings here is better than shouting at him right, readers? Now I feel like crying again. I just don't know why! Can someone please tell me why am I so emotionally unstable today? Just feeling very sad inside, is it a sign to bad incidents? Please God, I want everyone around me to be happy, please use your power to stop anything bad from happening.

Anyway, thanks baby for fetching me these few days. Only a few days more, ok? Bear with it, please. Love you :)

2009-09-19T01:30:00.002+08:00

Went back to Malacca with ZS in the afternoon just now. Definitely not my day. It just sucks!

All the incidents just happened without expecting, ended up quarrelling. Actually not quarrelling, he never intended to quarrel, neither did I. It was my attitude problem and some communication problems, but I believe it's not me alone, partially his fault too. I choose not to go into details. Anyway, we ended up with angry parting. I was angry, he was angry. I showered him with my sarcasm; he repaid me with "tu..tu.." over the phone. We are not the same person like how we started our chemistry. So different now. We both just want face. No one is willing to lose. And we are not talking to each other. He did not contact me, neither did I. I wanted to call but ... ... I chose not to because I know you need to calm down and did not wish to talk to me.

I tried hard, very hard to treat him very nicely these 4 days. Okay, I know! It was just freaking 4 days. Compared to the past 2 years, I was shouting at him almost everyday. We cannot live in peace one. I seriously showed my efforts even he did not give me something in return. I guess I have hurt him too much, way too much! He could have acted normally and being not appreciative; I don't mind, seriously. But the sentence just destroy all my faith and confidence. I want encouragements, in fact I need them to make changes. I need them to motivate me to becoming a better person. I need them to improve my real personality deep inside of me. I really really do. But you just gave me the opposite one.

I seriously wanna make changes to save this relationship because I care. It hurts when you do not see a future with your current partner. When you don't see him as your lifetime partner, it's even worse. What's the point being together now right? Time and youth consuming.

This was the first night I actually drove out to seek calmness. Sad, alone, being left were the words attacking me. In this one and a half hour, I have learned a lot from my lovely housemate since Alpha, one of my favourite girlfriends in my uni life. She taught me a lot of principles I predicted wrongly in the past. I am really grateful, thank God I have you. If not you, I would not know these new stuffs that supposed to be general knowledges to me. If not you, I would not know how to face this all alone. If not you, I would not have enlightened. If not you, I would still be miserable.

I am willing to learn, baby.
Are you willing to accept the new me?
Are you willing to believe in me again?

I am back!

2009-08-31T01:49:00.003+08:00

I am back! I AM BACK!

just went through all the troubles to recover my passwords. yes, i forgot my password. dun blame me lar, see how long I've not logged in already. I wonder is there anyone still remember this blog. anyway, I promised myself to continue maintaining this blog with sharing my wonderful life!

Stay tuned!

:)

THE DARK SIDE OF PORTUGUESE VILLAGE

2008-09-08T12:29:00.003+08:00

On the 8th of August, we celebrated 3cai's 21st birthday at carry on steamboat, after that we headed to the long bridge at PORTUGUESE VILLAGE/PORTUGUESE SETTLEMENT, I believed those who's Malaccan studying in Malacca should know, because PS is famous of the long bridge and open house during Christmas. Too bad, today I am not writing any "tourism" post or whatever which praise PR but I write this post to warn/inform everyone about my bad experience there.

stay tuned!

i will update after m y test

Free Movies at GSC Dataran Pahlawan

2008-06-30T02:08:00.004+08:00

Prior to opening of GSC Dataran Pahlawan, the public will be privileged to check out the new multiplex in the 5th floor, Phase 2, Dataran Pahlawan Melaka Megamall as the cinema will be screening movies for free for five (5) consecutive days starting this Saturday, June 28 - July 2, 2008 (Wed).

Movie fans in Malacca can look forward to catch past blockbuster movies like “The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian”, “Fool’s Gold”, “Azhagiya Tamil Magen” (Tamil), “Congkak” (Malay), “Speed Racer”, “My Wife is Gambling Maestro” (Chinese), “Evolusi KL Drift” (Malay), “The Forbidden Kingdom”, “The Water Horse: Legend of the Deep” and “Horton Hears A Who”.

Each person is only entitled to maximum of four tickets per redemption and the redemption exercise will start June 28 (Sat) onwards. Redemption of the free tickets is limited to the movies on the same day of redemption only. No advance redemption will be entertained.

Besides the free movies, the public can also look forward to fun activities and freebies during the opening weekend of GSC Dataran Pahlawan (July 3 – 6).

To get the free screening coupon and the schedules, click here. Enjoy, everyone! Hope this entry is not too late! You can start dating your love ones and enjoy with them!

Sharon has Turned 20 on 1st June 2008

2008-06-23T06:57:00.009+08:00

20 years old. In my mind, there's one word - Old. 2nd stage of my life given by my parents. Scary? Panic? Excited? Indeed, mixed feelings. Nothing special this year, normal celebration like every previous years.

On 31st May, baby brought me out to a normal cafe. He wanted to bring me to Tanjung (a place famous for pat toh back in my hometown) and give me a surprise, I just do not know why - fear filled me, maybe when people's getting older, their face skin would become thinner - PAISEH, omg can you imagine I actually felt paiseh and refused to go to that "romantic" place, so not me! So I said, let's go back to his house and give me surprise there. I knew it's a cake lar, but still, it's the thought that counts. Without me realizing it was already 12am, out of a sudden, the computer room went dark (before that I was still sedap-sedap online), he and his sister sang a happy birthday song while holding the cake. It's a love-shaped chocolate cake, from how he chose the cake, I knew he was thoughtful enough!

Me holding the birthday cake!

He was laughing at me while I was cam-whoring with my beloved cake.

Yeah~ a birthday kiss says it all =)

On the second day, we went back to Malacca and celebrate. A simple one, I requested.
That ended my day becoming 20. Seriously, spending my every birthday is a bliss to me.

Thank you, baby!

And, I would like to thank those who wished me via:
1. Phone calls: Priscilla, Sam, Foo Seong, Fongta, Chia Yih(all the way from India), Michelle

2. SMS-es: Wendy, Wee Nee, Yong Zhou, Kang Yun, Wei Honn, Vanessa, Tze Wei, Serene, Siew Bee, Elicia, Ah Bie, Jo Anne, Brandon, Christopher, Kian Perng, Crystal, Wei korkor, Melissa, 5th aunt, Kei Fai, Nicholase, Kai Jia, Shih Jia, Yong Kang, Ah Piang, Mun Loong, Qin Yee, Kai Siong, Carlyn(all the way from Australia)

3. MSN: Poh Joo

4. Friendster: My sister(Suzanne), Han Ni, Su Geok, Hui Ni, Kan Yuen, Alice, Ker Hoon, Lee Hong, Ah San, Fannie, Naughty Milky, Yumako, Janice, Avis, Philip, Micky, Jia Yin, Jing Ying, 傻瓜FOOL, Qian Hui, See, Michelle, Amy Chin, Mei Ying, Sophia.

Please tell me if I missed out your name(s).

Thank you everyone!

p.s. yea, I changed my blog skin again! Drop me comments k??

2008-05-09T04:44:00.004+08:00

I am satisfied!

1. Finally gao tim my last assignment before having my final exam..!

Data Structure, I am going to fail you, may God bless me!

2. Finished distributing flyers for Regal Park

Tiring but nice experience chasing by mad dog! LOL...

I am enjoying this moment listening to Singapore chinese radio-fm online(U-fm 1003) and doing assignment/ blogging, spending the night alone, no one else. The feeling is so nice, and I am really into in to the extend that I refuse to sleep... The sentiment is indescribable, am on cloud nine right now and I even think I am exam-free. It is indeed very relaxing. Maybe you can try studying with it, too. For those who are interested, click.

I hope that night will never fall,
I hope I could stop the time now,
I hope I am forever on cloud nine.

Disappearance

2008-05-07T15:15:00.003+08:00

Sorry for disappearing myself for so long time...

My PC at home spoiled(actually not spoiled, it's just me being lazy to change the freaking battery for my CPU). It's hard for me to blog without photoshop. So I'm SORRY. Plus now I will be having my final exam soon (starts from 12/5 - 23/5), during this period I believe I have no chance to blog because I freaking haven't even touched anything yet! So have to study like hell... During holidays I believe I can blog, again...
Hope that my laziness will not overtake my eagerness to blog!!

SORRY!!!

p.s. by the way, is my new blog skin nice? Please give some comment ya?
And can someone teach me how to put in archives in my blog?

Trailer -- Prom Night 2008 [MYSTIQUE]

2008-04-16T16:03:00.004+08:00

Friendship...

2008-04-08T22:37:00.003+08:00

is fragile...

Since friendship is a hot topic among my gang now, I should also voice out some of my opinions here! Everyone has friends; but you will never know who's true to you and who's fake to you. I always treat my friends nicely, for those whom I treated badly, there must be some reasons behind, so don't ever accuse me without any evidence! I love all my friends, and I know I can't live without them, although there are some hi-bye friends...

For those we were so close yet now has became like stranger, I feel regret to not take the initiative to ever chat with them in MSN, because I know I cannot accept the fact that I am losing them and if they ever reply me in cold tone, I will think much about it... And start thinking they dislike me and think that I am so annoying...

For those friends I've hurt, I have to say sorry. Those who know me well should know about my hot temper, but usually I do not show it to my friends frequently, only some special person can see that side of me... I am now much regret for showing my temper to someone that I am losing now, it seems like he does not trust me at all now, and we are now those I categorize as "hi-bye" friends... It is quite saddening for me when I ever got to know this...

we don't choose their colours,
we don't judge them by characters;
but to accept the entire them,
because no one is perfect...

It is so amazing when you got to know someone from the whole world, I do not know the exact population, but I think this is a rare chance for me and you becoming friends, I call it "destiny", and I do believe God arranged and it's destined that we are friends. I cherish all my friends as time flies, and I found myself grown up to someone you might not think you know me, and yes, I have changed! Now, I want to cherish all my friends including those "hi-bye"friends and also "stranger" friends, and I have taken the first step - to take the initiative to talk through MSN, although I did not really get the result I wanted, but it did not discourage me but it's encouraging me because I know I must have determination in saving friendships that I am losing...

I miss you, my friends...

Apology

2008-04-08T17:42:00.006+08:00

I write this entry to apologize to someone I care for. It was because of a very sensitive issue -- money. I have to admit that it was my fault, but I swear to heaven and hell, I did not do it on purpose. I am always absent-minded. I think I shall buy one book specially to record all my debts because I always forget.. And my blog readers, if I ever happen to owe you money, please do inform me, I will pay you immediately! But I can understand why she was so pissed at me because she reminded me loads of times, maybe about 10 times from the Thursday before the mid-term break. It actually took me very long to collect all the money, too. But that is not important...

When I realized she's angry at me, I found it was too late. To show my sincerity, I cracked my mind and finally I drove to her house and pay the money to her boyfriend; I feel guilty.

She stands a very significant and vital position in my heart; we used to share experiences in relationship, to tell secrets and laughed out loudly, to discuss some silly issues. Now, I still hope that we don't change, and this friendship shall remain. She is a very good friend; she always lends a helping hand whenever I needed her help... And I still hope for the same.

I am worried and troubled by this. Whenever I make someone mad at me, I will feel the same as long as he/she stands a place in my heart. I hope that she will forgive me.. Hereby I would like to apologize to her in public...

I'm sorry, Leah.

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2008-04-07T02:17:00.007+08:00

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Genting Trip [18-19 March 2008]

2008-04-02T22:52:00.019+08:00

I know it's a bit late to post this... But I was busy with exams and assignments!! Don't blame me kays??

One fine day, Ah Wee suddenly asked us whether wanted to go Genting or not... Actually wanted to go Redang, but it was too late to plan for that because it was only few days away from the mid-term break.

On Monday night(17/4) 8.30p.m. my bf and I went from Muar to Malacca in Tian Yih's car. (Actually we fetched my sister to MMU in the afternoon and went back Muar at 6p.m.) About 9.30p.m. we went to Jusco to grab some food/tidbits since food in Genting is super expensive! The next day we went breakfast at 9a.m. because our bus was at 10.30a.m. At last, Hubert, Ah Wee, Tian Yih, me and my boyfriend went there from Malacca in "707" bus which cost us freaking RM35 each person; but overall it was quite comfy lar...

Day 1
We reached Genting at 1.30p.m. and met Yi Fan. After that went and met my dearest Pris Pris,for so long I've never seen her since she started working as Secretary in GICC,Genting; too bad did not take a photo of her, she's seriously became prettier than ever! Muax!

After that we checked into Theme Park Hotel room 9208.

The scenery from this room was too breathtaking! There's a park when you look from the window, I could see couple "pat toh-ing" all the time.
Too bad we had no time to even go there pat toh... At least we went once on Christmas 2006, LOL!!

Took bath in the hotel, so refreshing!
Then we went out and walked around Genting.. We went and find the rest of them but could not get even though they told us the place... =.= Then we tried entering Casino, but failed.

At night, I met up with Pris again, catch up a bit with her latest storiessss... Missing the girls' talk time... When everyone starts busy with own stuffs, I guess we can even hardly gather, just hope that we will still keep in touch and the true friendship remains. Fyi, I know her since primary 1, it's long enough to be called true friendship, I think. How bout u, Pris?

Back to the story, when the short gathering with my soulmate, I got to know the rest had gone into Casino, left Tian Yih and Ah Wee with ~~immature~~ cute faces outside wandering. I went meet up with them both, and I tried again entering Casino, I was stopped by the guard, so embarrassing lar!! We had nothing to do so we went back to our room. Immediately I bathed in the bath tub again, I tell you it was so comfy when you soak yourself inside the hot water with the cold weather...! I was playing inside for about 1/2 hour, too bad, no photo for that! After me, it was Tian Yih who went in, I could tell how satisfied he was after bathing! LOL... Then I prepared the bathing water for my boyfriend so that he did not have to wait after he came back from Casino. Ain't I sayang him so much?? *haa-haa, shy*

Before we slept, it was photo shooting session lar... And these are some of the pictures =)

Take 1: Baby being naughty =)

Take 2: Baby not looking at the camera, on purpose!

Take 3: Finally done! A flawless one =)

Togetherness.
Credit goes to Tian Yih =)

You know...
I just adore the carpet...

Then we slept. The next morning, I was wakened up by his sneezing sound. My baby is scared of coldness all the time... *pat pat, fragile nose*

Day 1
At around 10a.m. we went for breakfast buffet at Happy Valley Restaurant(located at the lobby of Theme Park Hotel). We got 4 free voucher when we did the room reservation, so we just divided fairly and each person only paid RM10 for a sumptuous meal.. But the cashier was so rude to me! The variety of food was limited, too! Overall I was very satisfied with the food but NOT the service! Too bad I have no pictures for that...

We took bath before checking out at 12p.m. I did not care whether there's not enough time, I had to bathe in the bath tub! And I was happy that I did! Although not as fun as the previous night, but I was satisfied =) LOL... And poor them have to wait for me because I was overwhelmed and forgot the time and I made everyone waited for me...and Sorry!! =( I know they are all kind-hearted and won't be so calculative with me!! Hehe ^^

After checking out, we "tumpang" our bags in one special counter which located at the lobby too! The hotel was good enough to provide this kind of free service, I like it~ Without any burden, we can play as much as we can in Genting Theme Park!! 7 of us went in -- Me, Baby, Tian Yih, Hubert, Ah Wee, Raymond, and Yi Fan. 5 of us got half-price ticket from Pris. Thanks to her so much and each of us only paid RM19!! WOW, such a good bargain and don't get jealous~ Get someone who works in Genting and you can also pay half price!! Anyway, it was quite rainy and foggy that day.. Too bad we only got to try a few games.. All thanks to the "perfect weather" which rained and stopped and rained and stopped and.......grrrrrh!!

While waiting for them to decide whether to enter Theme Park..

I took it from some recommended spot by Konica =)
Isn't the painting of First World Hotel nice??

I was the photographer, I guess I am a good one! Aint I?
It was the 1st thing they tried -- scary flying swings!!

SPACE SHOT!
Salute them!
I will NEVER EVER try this!!
It is like asking me to die!!

A random picture taken while waiting for the rain to stop.

An incomplete group picture
Anyway, you can see Hubert was quite ready..^^

and...The picture of the day!
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HAHAHA!!!
Are you laughing? And must be thinking what's wrong with those guys??
The answer is...
They were trying to imitate some girls behind them!
Too bad you can't see the girls...
They are all cute ones, aren't they??

RED RED RED!!
Why everyone must take picture of the phone booth and the London bus in Genting?
LOL!!

I stood on the bench b'cos I was too short, but Baby took this...
I really think his sense of art increased!

I did not get to play most of the exciting games b'cos I was too timid...
So considerate Baby accompany me to sit this -- Antique car!!
❤ him~~

In the antique car, Baby took it and he was funny!

I took this and both of us looked good! ^^
~~Get what am I trying to say??~~

It was too foggy till we could not even see things within 5meters' distance.. Quite dangerous right...? So we were having headache on deciding whether to stay for another day or go back to Malacca.. We went back to the hotel and took our bag, and I took the chance to ask the reception whether was there any other way to go back in this situation. So he suggested using cable car, and we had no choice but to follow. Quite scary when there's wind, the system will automatically stop all the cable cars, imagine we are all halfway hanging and the cable car was swinging!! OMG! I was freaked out!! Anyway, there's always pictures pictures pictures!!!

Nice tropica!

~~Funny~~ Cute Baby!

He's always the one who comforts me when I need him...

Lastly,

Genting, I was here...
And I will be back!!

p.s. Info from Baby Eli, *buy one free one* from GSC! Promotion until 30th April 2008 only! Be fast!! Check it out! Click here.

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2008-03-29T02:11:00.001+08:00

I am having my lab test tomorrow afternoon!!
I haven't even touched a single line of coding,
yet I dun feel like studying...!
die or not....!??!?

A lonely Saturday..

2008-03-16T01:00:00.009+08:00

As the title stated, I had spent today which is a Saturday alone in my apartment, alone in my room...
The feeling was not too good, and not too bad too......!

My beloved went back to hometown in the morning... The reason I didn't want to go back was my family is coming later (it's now 1.08am)... And it seemed I have a lot of things to do in my apartment.

I "tapao" my lunch and dinner together at 12.10am, simply because I was too lazy to go down again to have my bloody dinner alone... After eating my lunch (chicken rice), I started photoshopping and completing my previous blog. Meanwhile, I washed part of my unwashed clothes to lighten my ~~mum's~~ washing machine's burden back in hometown.

And.......

I saw a very horrifying + disgusting + irritating + annoying + unpleasant scene!!

Guess what??!!

It was an used pad!!
Had no idea whose it was...
I almost puked all my food I'd swollen!
The best thing of this worst thing was there were NO BLOOD STAIN on it...
It's in the 1st toilet sink!! ~~Luckily not in the toilet I always use...~~
~~This was the 2nd time I saw this scene!~~ ~~The 1st time was even worse, there was still~~ ~~blood on it...~~
I wanted to take a photo of it to be put in my blog but at the same time I did not wish to spoil my blog and spoil the appetite of my readers!

Then, of course I hanged the clothes I've washed. I gained a great satisfaction, again! I guess I am too easy to be satisfied. Nah, it was because I could hardly ~~wash my own clothes~~ forget of the function of my beloved Toshiba washing machine; hard on you yea?! =)

Whole day listening to Yui's songs, I started to like her since 3 weeks ago. I heard Ivy playing her songs over and over again, I wondered how could she not get sick of the repeating songs; now I found the answer! Imagine me playing the same few songs the WHOLE DAY! I do not get sick of Yui's songs! I love her! Would like to recommend a few sings of hers here: Life (super love this song), I remember you, che.r.ry, Namidairo(her latest single), My generation and finally Rolling Star (Bleach's theme song)

Basically doing nothing for the whole day... I've been on the line and surfing Online Boutiques' latest updates! I am really into it these days! It's really cheap compared to real boutiques if you are ~~clever~~ stupid like me spending time searching almost every thread for the cheapest ones! Dear readers, if you want to know the website, here you are: (I will never be stingy in sharing good things!)

p/s. fyi, it's all in chinese language

http://www.jbtalks.cc/forumdisplay.php?fid=542&page=1
http://www.ericsoo.com/forum-254-1.html
http://www.sobusy.org/bbs/forumdisplay.php?fid=28
http://picasaweb.google.com/sineepigpig
http://picasaweb.google.com/skybluefashion

These are the websites I always surf to get updated on their clothes and prices!
Have fun, shopping queens out there!!

Before I end this entry, a few pictures of me taken out of boredom...
Warning: Don't view them if you think I was too ~~cute~~ redundant! Do not vomit!

I collect my washed apron from my balcony and had the idea of taking photo with it.
Isn't my twin-star apron cute?

A playful chef cum broken-winged angel =)

Loves music so much!

Room cleaning I - Wardrobe Cleaning

2008-03-12T01:55:00.034+08:00

My room was and is still in a ~~mess~~! That's why I've decided to clean my wardrobe today and I did it! So happy *hee-hee*

It took me a whole afternoon and almost the whole night to do it.. I was sooooooooo hungry at 10.30pm, went to yoke ting & jia xin's room, so coincidentally they asked whether I wanted to eat burger.. See, we shared telepathy =P and I know I have good housemates. Then we decided to have our supper at Wimerie. I ordered nasi lemak as usual; I love their nasi lemak there!!

Back to the topic, and yes I've cleaned my wardrobe, it's neat and tidy again; I seriously hope this will last... I found a lot of clothes that I'd totally forgotten bout 'em. ~~So bad.~~ Although I admitted I am quite into buying clothes, but all my clothes are economic and affordable! I bought nice but cheap clothes!! ~~*shopping queen; in fact calculative queen*~~ And even I own a lot of clothes doesn't mean I bought all. I am blessed to have nice nice clothes from my relatives and friends *geez* I don't mind wearing second clothes, as long as I like it, and at least I can wear for once or twice. *hee-hee*

A close girlfriend of mine, Priscilla, gave me orange butterfly cut-in singlet & green baby tee when she cleaned her wardrobe and it's still new!
I heart her so much! And it's not because she gave me clothes...

From up: 1. Red "Sub" bare backs from my cousin 2. Radioactive discounted pink spaghetti strips 3. Random grey cut-in singlet from Sg. Wang

From bottom: 1. RM10 turquoise spaghetti strips 2. RM10 shocking pink singlet 3. Purple Mjphosis singlet from my aunty

This spaghetti strips from FOS only cost me RM 15. There's lace by the side, and it's so sweet and sexy. Anyway, I'm making it into a halter neck! Wahahahaha.....! Let me be..

Someone gave me this, but I had never wore it before; and now, I find it too kiddish.

So this is gonna be given away!

Halter neck tips!

What you have to do is only playing with the string and making use of it!

As you can see in the left picture, I tied the string into a ribbon so that it looks sexier !

And the right one, I tied it and it became halter neck, of course this way is more secure !

good girl in campus VS wild sexy girl in club!

Unwashed clothes; I was just ~~lazy~~ busy to wash all these... Mummy, I am sorry... =P

The ~~unwanted~~ giveaways!

The outcome of the wardrobe cleaning
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DA DANG!!

Nice or not...?
Please don't tell me not nice!
I think it's nice!
If you don't think so, you must be jealous! Haha!

Neat and tidy!!
I super love the organizer!
Super useful because it really made my clothes so organized!
People out there, it's time for you to clean your wardrobe if you haven't done so.
You will know the satisfaction like I do~
Happy happy!!~

p/s. it took me soooooooooo long to complete this entry...don't know what's wrong with blogger system...
I just cant get the font and size I want!! I hope this won't happen in the future!

Hurt No More...

2008-03-08T02:50:00.007+08:00

For the first time I am so badly hurt.
Hatred was filling me, and pouring out of my painful heart.
The whole of me full of hatred, slowly it died because it could not take it anymore..
My heart died.. It does not hurt me anymore simply because of numbness..
My tears dried. They could fill my eyes no more!
Aint no pain, simply because too hurtful...
I refuse to think, I refuse to talk, I refuse to see.
I do not know where to start, and where to end..
I am stuck in between.. just stuck!
I wish I could turn back time, I wish it could be the same.
Yet, reality is cruel; it doesn't allow dreams to happen.
It is just all about dreaming, a fantastic dream, a dream that will never come true..

A redundant post which should be ignored.

2008-03-07T21:27:00.007+08:00

I am really PISSED!
There is no specific reason...
I am just pissed! And I could not stop crying...
Loneliness filled me...
He is out with his friends, not bringing me along.
I am just feeling sad!
He always complained saying how not close are his friends and me.
He always said I will only silent in front of his friends, made him embarrassed.
The reason is, I don't even know his friends, how am I supposed to talk to 'em?
The answer is in him.

He seldom brought me out with his friends; neither he comes out together with my friends.
What is in his mind? The answer is unknown. Forever unknown. If we are not involved in each other's social circle; then why are we together? I know, since I was together with him, or should I say before I was together with him, I know he was like that... He likes to live in low profile, way too low profile, I guess. I had not met his friends for God knows how long it took me to meet his friends; and I always wanted him to be with me when I was with my friends. I am starting to get closer with his housemates cum closest friends of his since the end of year 2007. Deep in my heart I was happy that this finally happened, and I believed there is room to improve as he is quite good with my friends already. Chances are hard to be encountered; yet I am still hoping for more. Someone said, "he must be hiding something from you, that's why he doesn't want you to be close with his friends." Another said, "he did not bring you out with his friends just because he does not want you to feel out of place since all his friends are all male."

We both know and understand each other to a certain level; yet, we quarrel still. And I believed I am the main cause. And I know how tolerating he is... and how considerate... but, he ................ maybe does not know how to express himself. I shall always remind myself.

At the end of the day, should I or should I not do something about it? God knows what will happen next. Sore throat now.

Love.

2007-11-23T01:02:00.001+08:00

Love..

[i] Love is wonderful.
Because you have someone to be with you.
[ii] Love is blissful.
Because you've found someone who loves you.
[iii] Love is hurtful
Because you care. How ironic.

What will you do if you find yourself can't stop loving someone?
I am too afraid to have this feeling in me.

lost.

2007-11-23T00:44:00.001+08:00

She doesn't know what to do...for now...

She's confused.

She's having a lot of doubts.
She is lost.

NIGHTMARE

2007-06-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

An eternal nightmare will not vanish in my heart. A S'pore TV programme show, a singing competition, a joke after dinner... I don't want to remember! I DON'T WANT TO!!! But ppl around me kept on reminding me, laughing at me, teasing me... Reason? Because I looked fat in that show, because I looked ugly in that show, because I looked funny in that show, because this, and because that... although 3 of us got good remarks from Taiwanese famour girl band - S.H.E and S'pore director - Mr. Jack Neo. I'll never forget how ppl looked at it, how ppl laughed at me, how ppl treated me. Even though it was past 2 years ago, but when ppl mention it, ppl will still laugh. And another reason. 22nd of November 2004 - a breakup, an event in my life, a heartbroken event which I wished to forget... Whenever I watch that show or even think about it, my mind will related to the breakup. A breakup which never cost me any tears, a breakup which hurt me a lot, a breakup which I did not want it to happen. But it still occured and I had accepted. Because a relationship with empty commitments and no sacrifices at all make no point. It has no point to continue. No point to be written in our heats. NO POINT!!

I want to FORGET, but ppl dun give me chance to.

Video clip for "Beautiful"...

2007-05-12T05:09:00.000+08:00

And I've found a video clip for "beautiful" by Jim Brickman feat Wayne Brady...
And it's actually a song for disney movie - "Cinderella"...

Beautiful...

2007-05-12T04:38:00.001+08:00

" Thanks for dedicating this beautiful song to me... Now I realised you always send me songs... In fact, you want to tell me something through the song. Frankly said, I was touched by the lyrics... And I cried. And I remember those memories we shared. Yea, it's indeed beautiful... I din know i was so wonderful in your eyes. Thanks for being so appreciative towards me. And I felt being appreciated, always... Thank you so much..."

Beautiful

Singer: Wayne Brady
Pianist: Jim Brickman

From the Moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes
there was something about you
I knew I knew
that you were once in a life time
a treasure near impossible to find
and I know how lucky I am to have you

Chorus:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Holding you in my arms
no one else has fit so perfectly
I could dance forever with you, with you
and at the stroke of midnight
please forgive me if I can't let go
cause I never dreamed I'd find a Cinderella of my own

Chorus:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Chorus repeat:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...
Oh Oh, Oh no, I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

from the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes...

Friend.

2007-05-08T03:05:00.000+08:00

Define FRIEND.

I will say it this way - It's someone(s) everyone needs.

Today, I am here to insert this entry for special reason.

For a friend I've hurt...

It's painful... Hurtful.

I can say nothing except for sorry.

I'm so sorry I've cheated you for an unacceptable reason.

And I'm sorry for being honest, too.

Guilt filled me therefore I told you the truth.

And it's still filling me because I know how hurt you are...

You will not trust me again, I know.

And you told me you wont believe in friends anymore.

It's all my fault.

I've ruined everything.

I'm so sorry.

To Give or Take?

2007-04-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

Whenever I see couples on the street, I'll think, are they simply so loving, or
they are just like us, having problems behind the happy faces...

In the past, I'll never think twice to give. Because of this, I guess maybe he was trained to take as I am the one who gave. I'll never hesitate to do anything for him just to make him happy. But today, I shall have second thought when I want to give, again.

We are so-called "special" in a way. The reason I shall keep it as a secret. He doesn't like too many things. I just don't know why. Because he has his own way of living a life, his own way to treat a girl he calls a girlfriend, a lover. Too much of his own way.

Everytime when I promise myself to stop giving, or to treat him normal, just like the way he treats me. But i can't do it. I just can't do it. I bear not to treat him bad. Even I'll become a clown like nobody's business, I'll not mind. I just want to show my love. Expressing my love by saying "i love you" to him everyday seems a daily routine to him, but to me, it's not!! I say it with my sincere heart. I really mean it when I say it.

Not that he is that bad... Sometimes he is good also. As I mentioned in the past, how we celebrated our v-day and all that. Even people thinks that I deserve a better one, I'll insist because I love him. I just can't love another guy. NO!

I know he'll be angry when reading this. He always said that I'll be happy to let the whole world know things between us. He can never think another way. I also have my own way to release everything in my heart. Unlike him, he can keep it to himself. Too much of crying ain't the way.

I think I should learn from my housemate. Learn to take. Girls always give. It's so unfair. I'm so happy that she had found another guy who treats her just like the way that every girls dream of. I know I should not be so demanding to request my boy treats me just like him. But at least, not in a hurtful way. It's so hurt to know someone you love refuse to even accept what you've planned for them.

Way too hurtful.

Maybe I'm not good enough to be his ideal one. But I have been trying so hard to change myself for the better. I sincerely hope that one day he'll realise my efforts. There are too many compromises to learn, to tolerate, to ..............

Anger in us.

2007-04-05T16:06:00.000+08:00

Is there a hidden enemy in your home? Could a mysterious adversary be concealed within your family? Even though this antagonist has caused untold damage and suffering in the lives of many people throughout the world, few seem to recognize this enemy for what it is. What is this foe? It is unresolved anger.
Anger is an often-misunderstood emotion. Many misconceptions and myths masquerade as truth. It is a mistake to deny that we do get angry or to believe that getting angry is always wrong. "Angry feelings can go underground. They often don't display themselves in active forms such as hitting, pinching, throwing things, or slamming doors. They take more subtle forms like silence, irritation, resentment, bitterness, and hatred" (Anger Is a Choice, Tim LaHaye, p. 13).
Failure to properly manage or control our anger can result in disastrous consequences. "Damage to personal relationships is one of the most common costs of anger, and probably the worst. The relationships that are damaged are often your best... The most frequent targets of anger include spouses, children, coworkers, and friends" (How to Control Your Anger Before It Controls You, Albert Ellis, Ph.D., p. 3).
"Deciding to live your life with less anger may be one of the most important decisions you will ever make," Dr. Ellis wrote (p. 17). Uncontrolled and unresolved anger prevent us from healing emotionally. When we have been hurt or offended by others, God wants us to forgive and pray for the offender. Harboring our anger makes it very difficult, if not impossible, to forgive others.
(The Good News, a magazine of understanding, http://www.gnmagazine.org/gnupdate/2005/gnupdate04002005.htm)

Hurt

2007-03-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

I am nothing anymore.

Nothing to everyone.

Everyone refused to tell me what had happened.

Even I took the initiative to know.

And everyone thought that I don't know anything.

Actually, people, I KNOW what is going around me!!!

Including those fake information given to me!!!

NO CHOICE, I have to pretend. Pretend in front of everyone.

Pretend that I DO NOT KNOW ANY SINGLE THING.

Feel like shifting out, feel like crying out loud.

Friendship? Haha. Too fake.

Sharing? Haha. Too shallow.

The All-American R...

Is it a retribution?

2007-03-09T15:46:00.000+08:00

I love you more and more each day, but what do i get back?

I'm not asking repay from you.

At least you should do what you have to do.

You have responsibility la wei!!!

I felt left out; I felt abandoned; I felt so redundant...

Why you're always not there when I need you?

Despair fills me! Tears can't help.

I cant stop myself from thinking like that...

" Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am? "

Please tell me if you are not happy with me.

I wish to become the one who can really share the hapiness and sorrow with you.

Please let me feel appreciated.

Let your love fill my vacant soul!!!

Fear...

2007-03-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

Fear's growing in my heart now...

Something had happened,

and supposedly you would have felt something for it.

In contrast, you told me you didn't feel anything.

I wondered how true it is.

If you felt something, just tell me kays?

Your refuse to tell me made me worried...

Because I don't want anything to happen between us...

Don't always hide your feelings...

Because I am always here for you...

Why?

2007-03-01T13:01:00.000+08:00

My pride is on the floor now.

I felt cheated. I felt abandoned.

Obviously there's something happened so abruptly.

But, it's okay.

Maybe that's the plan from God, I can only accept it.

Things are no longer the same. And I shall try to learn a new way of leading my life.

Thank you for everything.

And now I know what I have to do now, I guess.

God Bless.

The very 1st v day

2007-02-15T20:00:00.001+08:00

What do I mean by 1st v day? Actually this was the 3rd v day since we got together. We never celebrated 2 previous v day together, because we were apart from each other. I still remembered, I said this to you once, "Valentine's day is not meant for us." But this time, yesterday, finally we can celebrate v day.. However, I was not feeling well after the exhausting swimming session with Cyrs.

The 1st present I received was from Sam. Thanks for the Beryl's almond chocolate ya! The second one was from Fongta. Thanks for the Mars and Snickers as well as the lollipops!

Yesterday was really a surprise for me! I never think of having such a romantic v day with you, baby... Here I go... He picked me up at around 7pm after his class. I was still busy wrapping present for him. It was a Polo wallet which I had just bought it from Jusco that very afternoon. Thanks to Sam and Crys. Sam fetched us and Crys accompanied me. Thank God for giving me such good friends. After that, we went dapao from pasar malam. I skipped my dinner as I totally don't have appetite to eat. People might think that why didn't I go for a romantic candle-lite dinner.. But seriously I don't mind. ^^ It was actually a waste of money.

I was totally dead on his bed as he was eating his dinner. So deadly. Next, it was the thing which surprised me the most! He asked me to close my eyes. When I opened my eyes, there was a polystyrene with fire-crakers on it. The fire-crackers was shaped a love. It was so touching, man!! Although it was not a very expensive surprise, still, I felt contented and happy!! "Baby, you're becoming more and more romantic." This was the 1st sentence that came out from my mouth.. geez^^

He planned to go to the beach, and I agreed although I was still not feeling well. After he took his bath, we set off at around 10pm. I had no strength even to hug him on the bike. And I felt so cold. The bloody cold wind caressed my face and I was actually kind of shivering. But to fulfill his wish, I didn't tell him about this. After a long journey, we came to a very very dark road. We started fearing and decided to go back. On the way going back, he saw one road sign showing pantai Kundur's direction was actually on the right side. He gave it a try. On the way, he bought me a very delicious burger. I was totally out, I requested to go back. It was 11.30pm when I reached home. that's how we spent our v day together. I felt his love is filling my heart! Thanks for everything, baby... I love you so so much!!! Hope that we can celebrate every v day until the day I stop breathing, ya?

Today morning, my condition worsened. He fetched me to see doctor. OMG, I have to swallow so many pills. The doc gave me gastric pills, stomachache pills, flu pills, fever pills and nausea pills. Now, I'm still not feeling well. Words can't describe the suffering i'm having right now! Hope I'll recover soon with God's love!

Happy chinese new year in advance to all of you!

Love is not the way you want it to be.

2007-02-07T18:10:00.000+08:00

Today, only i realise, love can be shown in such a special way.

As my title goes - "Love is not the way you want it to be" ,everyone has their own unique way to express their love to their loves one. Don't ever make judgement like this - "he/she doesn't love me anymore" or "he/she doesn't love me the way I want" or even "why can't he/she love me that way?" Because you will never know how much he/she cares for you in their own way. I've just read an article which made me cry.

"My husband was an engineer. Since I met him, he was always an unflappable rock in my life. I knew he always had his feet firmly planted on the ground, and it seemed that no matter what else went crazy, he would be the one constant.

Three years of romance, and two years of marriage later, I got tired.He was the most unromantic man I know. He never bought me flowers, he never surprised me, and nothing changed in our marriage. After some time, I finally found the courage to tell him that I wanted to leave him. He just sat there, speechless. My heart froze... what kindof manwas I married to that didn't even know what to say to make me stay?

After a while, he spoke, "What can I do to change your mind?"
"I will stay if you can give me a good answer to this question," I replied coldly.
"If I asked for a flower that grew on a cliff, and youknew that getting it for me means certain death,would you get it for me?" His face grew troubled.
"Can I give you an answer tomorrow morning?" he asked.

Hearing that kind of answer, my heart died. I knew that I could never be happy with a man who couldn't even give me a answer straight away.

The next morning, when I woke up, he was missing. In the living room, under a warm glass ofmilk, was a note. My eyes grew misty as I read it ..

"Dear, I have my answer. I will never pick the flower for you if it meant certain death. But before you leave, I hope you can give me a chance to give you my reasons ....You will always sit in front of the computer and type about for the whole day, but everytime you will end up in tears cause your formatting will always go all over the place... I need my fingers, to do the formatting for you, so your tears will become smiles.You like to travel, but would always get lost ... I need my eyes, so that I can bring youto the nicest places on earth.Every time you leave the house, you would always forget your keys ... I need my legs, so that I can run home to open the door for you. You never knew how to take care of yourself... I need my hands ,to help you get rid of the pesky white hair you hate so much when you grow old, to trim your nails, to feed you. So you see, that's why I can't pick the flower for you. Until I find someone who loves you more than I do, I will need my body to take care of you.If you accept my reasons, then open the door,where I will be waiting with your favorite muffin."

With tears streaming from my eyes, I opened the door, and there he stood, with a extremely worried look on his face. He still had nothing to say, but just stood there waving the packet he had in his hand in front of me. And then I knew for a fact that I will never find another man who will ever love me as much as he does. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they have ..."

Crystal said, girls do have very high expectations for relastionship, but boys only know to give they very basic things that they have. I totally agree with this statement. It's so true. Maybe it's because boys can never understand what girls want. But now, I learn to accept, and to forgive. Accept the way he shows his care, his love, his commitment, and his promises. Forgive him for not being romantic as I expected.

Love is complicated. We can hardly find someone who really knows what's love actually is. I don't know whether I know how to love. But, in front of him, I become so different. I know I love him, very very much! I love the way he looks at me, holds me, hugs me, kisses me, caresses me, touches me. I love watching him. Or in another i shall say, I enjoy watching him. His actions, his smiles, his cuteness, I observe intently. I never want to give up the precious relationship between he and I. Never think of it. I have confidence that we can make it until the end, no matter what people says.

Today, i've learnt a lesson from him. His initiative had touched me deeply. Although he was angry, but he had tried his best toe make my tears become wide wide smile. Thank you for letting me know how much you actually care for me. I'm so sorry for the misunderstanding, baby..

I will not want to change our relationship. It will remain, from the past, to the current, and in the future.

" I have you to be with, everything will be alright."

I love you, forever and ever.

p.s. Baby, don't be afraid of losing me. I'm yours. Forever yours.